Holiday

So it's only 3 more days until I'm off on holiday my bloggers!

I'm really really excited! I don't really know if it's excitement just because I'm saying it is or whether I genuinely am. I keep saying I am but I don't think I will be until we are actually in the airport and ready to get on the plane.

The thing I'm most excited for... I'm not quite sure to be honest. The drink? The pool? I really don't know but all I can say is...

HERE'S TO KAVOS 2013!

Keeping it separate

I've never really liked mixing my group of friends. I'm quite particular about my work friends being separate from my school friends being separate from my outer school friends and so on. I've always been weird like that. I just like having my separate people and separate groups of friends. Just one of these weird things I do and like.

But recently, they've all seemed to be meshing together, and I've gotta say, I do not like it one bit. The only person that should be allowed to mingle with them all should be my best friend. But when that person start to mix my friends all together, I seriously start to feel anxiety and detest but I've never understood why.

I love all my friends, I do. I mean, I wouldn't have befriended them otherwise, right? It's not that they wouldn't get along if they were all together and it's not like I have anything to hide because I don't. But I just like to have some people s e g r e g a t e d from others. It may be due to the fact that they all know different things or because I feel different sorts of comfort with each of them?

I don't know if anyone will even understand this post or get where I'm coming from but I just don't like mixing groups of friends. And when it DOES happen, how do you stop it?

Trainspotting

So a couple of days ago, I saw 'Requiem for a Dream' and today I watched the film 'Trainspotting'.

They are both very fucked up films to say the least but I recommend that everyone watches 'Trainspotting' first as it is less messed up and doesn't show the full effect or aftermath of drugs but 'Requiem for a Dream' is on a whole other level. 

If anything, this film has taught me to definitely not result to drugs or even try them. They seriously fuck with your mind and put you in some pretty insane situations, physically and mentally. 

I do think that anyone willing to try any drugs 'just for the hell of it' should really rethink their situations and watch these films to see the consequences that occur. This film made me feel so uncomfortable and yes, I cried from the vexatious feeling. 

But all in all, they were both really good films. But do not try the stunts at home. For real.

The night off

So exam period... Everyone's been through it and it is not pretty. So here's me, Erene and Laura are just here talking about what really matter and who we should turn to when we're unsure. 

The answer is friends. Friends are there for you no matter what and if they leave you, you know they were never your friend or worth it. You stress about exams, you get your hearts broken, you have embarrassing moments and you get drunk and blurt out unnecessary things. But friends would be here for you throughout it all and never judge you. 

I can't say I'm perfect or my friends are perfect but we all know how to have a good time and be there for one another. 

If I could turn back time

Smoking...

...worst habit ever and most regretted thing. I've never really understood why I started to smoke and even more, why I haven't stopped. It's not doing me any favours and it is potentially killing me. 

Maybe I started because of peer pressure, I thought it was cool at the time, I wanted to try something new? I don't know. I'm just as confused as anybody. And I don't know why I don't stop. I'm too addicted, I don't want to, I still wanna be be cool? Fuck knows.

But what I do know and what I've learnt is that I would never ever recommend someone to take it up. The constant sneaking around, your health at risk, the money wasted. It's not worth it. Trust me. 

If I could go back and never start, I honestly would. 

Kavos 2013

So, I'm going on holiday in 2 WEEKS TOMORROW, very exciting I know, and Kavos it is for me and my two friends. Let's be honest, we've all heard these stories and seen the TV programmes about 'What happens in Kavos' and whatnot, but realistically, us three really aren't that oblivious or stupid to let anything like that happen to us, because unlike most people, we have our heads screwed on right.

Great place, 2 great friends, a week with sun, booze, sea and possibly sex. So my issue? I don't believe all these things could possibly happen to us but at the end of the day, I guess they could? I think it is just the media and society planting ideas and worrying thoughts into my mind about the consequences that could potentially occur but I hope not? I guess no-one could ever really know until they encounter this experience for themselves, which is what I guess I need so psych myself up for...

I'm known as 'the mum' of nights out because I'm always making sure everyone's safe, no-ones gone on a walkabout and that if anyone needs a pint of water, to chunder or to sleep, I will make sure it happens for them. This is what I will be of Kavos '13, "THE MUM". I don't mind, I honestly don't. I like seeing other people having fun and doing as they please under the influence of alcohol because I'm the reliable one, but it would be nice to have the roles under swapping arrangements but we shall see 'What happens in Kavos'...ironic right?

So I've Wound Up Here...

I didn't have any intention to be big, or have loads of followers or anything like that from this blog. I guess I just wanted to have somewhere to write down all my feelings, emotions and thoughts that I seem to have and to not be judged for it. Just seemed like the logical and right thing to do I guess, just to rant or write whatever on here to make me feel better. Is that selfish?

I don't even know, but I do know that I will be blogging from here on out, so I guess you will be seeing and hearing a lot more from me...

Night Bloggers. x